Help! Help! I’m calling out to the world around me but yet no one seems to hear my cry for help. I am crying out to be recognized from all the problems, pains, frustrations, worry, grief, and disappointments that are drowning me and slowly pulling me under. Every time I feel like I have enough strength to grasp for a breath of fresh air, another thing arises and takes me back under. I wonder why no one can hear me? I wonder why no one has yet to reach out their hand to save me? I wonder why everyone is moving ahead of me as I am slowly sinking deeper moment by moment. All you can do is scream, all you can do is cry, all you can do is wonder why.
Have you ever been in a position where you felt like you were drowning from depression? Have you ever been so overwhelmed with the trials and tribulations that you were just down and out? Have you ever got to a point of questioning what your life is meant for? Have you ever been in a place so dark that you even thought about what life would be without you?
These are all questions that you may have asked yourself before in a place where you felt like you hit rock bottom. Hitting rock bottom or life problems piling up seem to be some major reasons for depression. It could also be that depression runs in your family.
However, no matter the reason behind depression, living with depression can be one of the scariest roller coaster rides you could ever be on in your life. It can have you feeling up one moment and then feeling down the next. There are many different types of depression that you could be experiencing. Some of the forms of depression include; postpartum, seasonal, major, dysthymia and more. Here is an article by Everyday health that goes into more detail on 9 Different Types Of Depression. It is important to recognize the signs and symptoms of depression so that you can begin to seek the type of help that can get you on the right track.
Some symptoms of depression that you can look for are:
|Symptoms of depression include:|
|Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation.|
|Loss of interest in daily activities. You don’t care anymore about former hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex. You’ve lost your ability to feel joy and pleasure.|
|Appetite or weight changes. Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month.|
|Sleep changes. Either insomnia, especially waking in the early hours of the morning, or oversleeping.|
|Anger or irritability. Feeling agitated, restless, or even violent. Your tolerance level is low, your temper short, and everything and everyone gets on your nerves.|
|Loss of energy. Feeling fatigued, sluggish, and physically drained. Your whole body may feel heavy, and even small tasks are exhausting or take longer to complete.|
|Self-loathing. Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. You harshly criticize yourself for perceived faults and mistakes.|
|Reckless behavior. You engage in escapist behavior such as substance abuse, compulsive gambling, reckless driving, or dangerous sports.|
|Concentration problems. Trouble focusing, making decisions or remembering things.|
|Unexplained aches and pains. An increase in physical complaints such as headaches, back pain, aching muscles, and stomach pain.|
Did you know that more than 40 million adults 18 and up in the United States is affected by depression? The question is why? Why are so many people losing themselves? Why are so many people becoming depressed and losing hope?
Maybe it’s the increase in poverty. Maybe it’s the constant pressures of standards from the world. Maybe it’s family issues, unemployment, low self-esteem, and self-worth. Depression just seems to be taking over our country with no end insight of these high statistics of it.
Today’s post is not at all about giving you the educational information of depression but instead to give you encouragement and understanding from a person who suffered from depression tremendously. Sometimes when we are extremely depressed or are going through our own storm we tend to think that no one understands where we are coming from but the truth is there is plenty of people who understand you, there is just not a lot of people opened to telling their stories with depression.
Below you will find a video of my story in dealing with depression. This story will also motivate, encourage, and connect with you in an understanding way. I want you to know that you are not alone. I want you to know that depression is most certainly something that you can overcome.
When I was younger my mom she was a great mother, she did everything under the sun for us but during our middle school years, things changed when she met a man who ruined her life. She sent me to live with my grandma who at the time I had never met before and sent my sister to live with her dad. During this time I was so devasted, I felt neglected and unwanted. I couldn’t understand why mom was leaving me, I couldn’t understand why I didn’t have my father in my life either. So during this time my self-worth, self-esteem went completely down the toilet because I felt worthless and unwanted even by the people that gave birth to me. This was a start of the major depression. I was always a good girl in school straight A’s and honors classes. However, once my mom left my behavior started changing. I became angry and started acting out to get attention because I didn’t have any. I would just have random crying spells. I would literally sleep all the time. I would barely or not at all eat anything. My depression got so bad that I decided that my life wasn’t worth living, so I attempted to take my life. I attempted to take my life in away undisclosed but it was the most scariest feeling that I could have imagined. It was like I wanted to die because I was tired of the pain and feeling unwanted, but then a little piece of me didn’t want it to work because I wasn’t ready to die. Needless, to say it didn’t work. I am so thankful to God that it didn’t work because I wouldn’t be here telling you this story. I am thankful it didn’t work because I realized that the pains, dissapoinments and all the things I was feeling was only situational and not permenant.
As I began to realize the reality of the situation I saw that in fact death was not the answer but life was. I realized that me living was the only way that I was going to conquer all the things I was going through.
Now there is a lot more to my life story that I could share but today I just wanted to share enough to just encourage you to know that you can overcome. To encourage you to know that you are not alone in your pain.
Today or even in the moment it may seem like life is beating you up, like there is no end insight, you may feel like you want to just give up. But I want to tell you don’t give up. I want to tell you that although life may knock you down that doesn’t mean that you can’t get back up. Although it may seem that the odds are stacked against you, if you just hold on and keep pressing forward there will come a time where you are greater, stronger, and wiser than the odds that are stacked against you. Keep pushing for yourself, keep growing and learning, keep pursuing your dreams. Keep living life because you are worth it.
You may never know how a small difference in how you view life can change your life drastically.
DONT GIVE UP !!!!!
3 Things To Help With Depression
- Seek Help
Seek out professional help or people that you can trust to help you in dealing with such strong emotions. We can not think that we can overcome these things alone because we can’t. Do not be afraid or embarrased there are plenty of people going through or who has been through depression before. Seek the help that you need.
2. Spiritual Connection or other good habits
What has helped me is my connection with God, he has been my rock through all my hard times. However, if you don’t have a connection other great things to do are exercising and eating healthy. Exercise relases good endorphins that make you feel good.
3. Change Your Perception
Start seeking out information, people, books, tapes, or anything outside of your comfort zone and enviornment that can begin to change and shape your mindset.
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